Since my father’s open heart surgery and all the stress therein this last January, I have been marching forward without really seeing what’s going on. Perhaps the fact I haven’t been able to write worth beans in over a month should have tipped me off. I think I was so focused on getting by that I didn’t realize I was merely existing. I now know I’ve lost my ‘happy’, the wonderful mood and joy I usually am in. It’s a wonderful place to be and I’ve lost it.
Instead, sometime over the last few months, I sank into depression and didn’t realize it. Until I spent the last two days crying for no f’ing reason whatsoever.
So, I’m focused now on getting back my ‘happy’.
As such, you won’t see me online much until it’s there. It may take a few days, a few weeks, or a few months. It may also throw off my release schedule as going through the motions isn’t helping anything.
Hopefully, I’ll get it back quickly as it is my normal state of being. But I wanted you to know as I am basically going to disappear from online life until I’m fully back within my joy.