Last week, I gave you a snippet from As Natural As Breathing. Today, I’m giving you a look at its sequel, Took My Breath Away, second book in the All They Ever Needed trilogy.
In this snippet, Logan has been forced to face some truths that shake him. He’s in New York with his father’s relatives and is having a bit of a crisis.
What the hell was he doing? Coming to New York was supposed to be a fun thing, a new adventure. Instead it felt like it had become his own personal hell. If only… he sighed and shook his head. If only what? He had not come to New York? His grandparents had not come to New York? Or was the ball the ‘if only’? Getting up, he used the bathroom and stopped at the sink, forcing himself to look at himself again.
The man looking back at him looked cold, unfeeling, and at that moment, Logan realized that was exactly how he felt. Nothing. Not one feeling. Reaching up, he touched the necklace and looked at it, waiting to feel the warmth that always came from Christian.
He felt numb. Shaking, he turned and crawled back into bed, pulling the covers over his head. His first inclination was to run to his mother and let her make it better. But she was not there. Neither was his father, nor his boyfriend. And what would it help anyway? He was doing this to protect his family – it was not like he could tell them what was going on. For the first time in his life, Logan felt utterly alone. His brain switched off, and it was not that he slept so much as he was not completely awake.
At some point, Darin brought him dinner, but he feigned sleep and Darin left. He tried not to think, but the one thing that kept him somewhat sane was the fact that the ball was in twenty-four hours. After that, surely he could go back to being Logan Mannette.
And now Christian was calling incessantly. Taking a deep shuddering breath, Logan hit accept, put the phone up to his ear and opened his mouth… but nothing came out.
“Logan?” Christian’s warm voice hit him and he felt a huge sob break in his chest. He tried to hold it back, and he even put a hand over his mouth to try and hide it, but the second time, it came out of his throat.
“Logan, Honey, what’s wrong?”
It was the endearment that hit him. Christian had taken to calling him ‘honey,’ and the word unraveled him faster than he could imagine. As his hand dropped, a huge sob ripped out. “Christian, who the hell am I?” The words were not expected, and as he heard them, Logan burst into tears and could not stop. He cried for a long time, loud sobs and hiccups that later on he
would be sorry Christian had to listen to. When they cut down to whimpers and muscle spasms, he heard the voice he loved.
“Ah, Logan, talk to me. I knew something was wrong. Come on, Honey. Tell me what’s going on.”
“I don’t know who I am,” he whispered. “I don’t feel… anything except horrible. All day I’ve been numb. I’m gonna fuck up tomorrow, and Mom and Dad will have to pay for it. Christian, I… I don’t know what to do.”
While unhappy to be missing four weeks of Christian's company, Logan is thrilled to spend a month with his father's relatives in New York. A naturally gregarious individual, he’s used to winning people over and getting things right. Unfortunately the Mannettes are not what he expects and for the first time in his life, he doubts who he is.
Christian has regained some of his old self-esteem and is taking on new challenges. Besides growing in the relationship he has with Logan, he takes the time his boyfriend is away to learn more about domestic discipline. He learns a little online but it is Gregory, Logan's father, where he gains most of his information. Including the fact that his natural strength puts him in a position he doesn’t expect.
Logan hits rock bottom and Christian runs to the rescue. He saves Logan from New York, but puts their relationship in a new sort of peril. When the dust settles, who will be left on top?